Thankful

Today is Mother's Day.

Today is my first as a mother.

I have been a little emotional today which I didn't think I would be. Motherhood is certainly an emotional ride but I was overwhelmed with thankfulness today. You see, I have something called PCOS (google it) which makes it more difficult for me to get pregnant. After trying for about a year we headed to see a specialist and were on our last chance at IUI when we got pregnant. Our next step would have been IVF. I have a lot of respect for those ladies who have had to go that route.

The day we found out about Kayla was very surreal. I was just expecting the test to be negative. I had seen so many negatives that when it read "pregnant", I literally had to catch myself on the bathroom counter because I could not believe it. We had been praying for so long and finally God had answered our prayers!

So today, as I looked at my beautiful, full of life 10 month old, I couldn't help but thank God for his faithfulness.

Today in church we sang a Chris Tomlin song called "Our God". As we sang it I lifted my hands high as tears streamed down my face. It reflected perfectly how I was feeling. My God is so much bigger than any obstacle we face. He can take something that seems impossible to us and turn it into a beautiful miracle.

Water You turned into wine
Open the eyes of the blind
There’s no one like You
None like You
Into the darkness You shine
Out of the ashes we rise
There’s no one like You
None like You

CHORUS
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

Into the darkness you shining
Out of the ashes we Rise
There’s no One like You
None like You.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

BRIDGE
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
What can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome in power
Our God, Our God…

A mover and a shaker...

Pretty Princess started crawling a few weeks ago and she hasn't stopped moving since. I can't leave her for more than a second for fear that I will come back to a room destroyed. I vacuum all the time but I swear she finds lent and fuzz everywhere. Maybe I need a new vacuum?

What Mom? I'm not supposed to play in here?

On a side note...I have lost the remainder of my baby weight. I think the crawling and the weight loss may be linked.

What's on my head???

Update

Kayla finally got her helmet about 3 weeks ago. It is really cute. She acts like she doesn't really seem to know she is wearing it most of the time. I am thankful for that. We took her back yesterday to have it adjusted and she is making progress! Yay! She is supposed to have it for 3-4 months. I am hoping that she will have it off before her first birthday which is July 8th.

Kayla and I went to the zoo for the first time last week. She acted like she could care less about any of the animals. So really it was just for me to get out of the house I guess. Cynda and Annaliese went with us so we had good company.

She started crawling about a week or so ago. I am not sure I will ever sit down again. She is in to everything. It has been kind of fun seeing her roam around the living room. She is so inquisitive and I love it! I can't wait to see what kind of adventures we will have!

Travel with a baby?

We are trying to plan our summer vacation. Looks like our destination will be San Fransisco. We are trying to make the decision as to whether pretty princess will be joining us there or not. We have never flown with a baby and man it's kind of overwhelming. Thinking about all the stuff you have to take with you when you have a kid is insane. Glad I have other mommy friends who have flown with a kid before so I can pick their brains.

P.S. Kayla's helmet will be ready this coming Monday. I will post some pictures when we get it.

Mom's Group

I recently started going to a mom's bible study with my friend Nicole. It meets once a week at a church close to my house and they have childcare. Childcare was a MAJOR selling point. I absolutely love being a stay at home mommy to pretty princess but I am an EXTREME extrovert and Kayla doesn't really speak back when I ask her questions. Not entirely true. She does say hmmanmanman and oohhh. :)
It has been so refreshing to meet with these ladies. Honestly, we don't really know them well yet but I get so excited every time I think about it. I think I knew how great this was going to be when one of the other mommies said, "We go to Jason's Deli everyday and get tea, just so I can leave the house." So true!
This is such a sweet time in life. A time when I am able to be fully attentive to my baby girl. When I get to see her learn and grow into the person God has designed her to be. That doesn't mean though that I should abandon the time I need to spend in fellowship with other women walking the same road I am. It has been so helpful to know that other women are living similar things as me. I really believe that God has perfect timing. And He knew this was something that I really needed. He is so faithful!

The Helmet

Pretty Princess had colic and until about the age of 3 months she wouldn't sleep AT ALL unless she was swaddled.

"The Burrito"

Well all that spending time on her back caused quite the flat spot on her noggin. :( We started noticing it about the time she turned 2 months. The Dr. has been watching it and at her 4 month sent us to see if she needed a helmet. They told us to keep her off her head as much as possible. Pretty much the only time she is on the back of her head now is if she is asleep and has positioned herself that way. We have even been taking her to physical therapy to try to help as well. We recently took her back, and despite our best efforts, it hasn't gotten that much better. It isn't an extreme case and we were told that the flat spot wouldn't hurt her development but that they suggested we go ahead and do it. Since we don't want her coming to us later on in life wondering why we didn't get it fixed we have decided to go ahead with it. So once everything is cleared with our insurance Kayla will be sporting one of these 23 hours a day for the next 3 months or so...

I am not going to lie. I REALLY don't like the fact that she will have to wear it but I also know that this is what is best for our sweet baby. We are praying that combining the helmet with physical therapy will speed the process along.

There are a lot of things that I am thankful for during this whole thing. The flat spot won't cause any development problems. Her case isn't really bad so she won't have to wear it as long as some babies do. I am thankful that God has allowed me to be a stay at home mommy because we will probably have to go in a few times a month to make adjustments. I am thankful for our insurance. We are blessed to have amazing insurance that is going to take care of the cost of most of this. And I am VERY thankful that Pretty Princess won't remember any of this. I know how mean kids can be and as much as it brakes my heart now that she has to have it I am thankful she isn't older.